I'm scared
to tell anyone what I'm going through. I'm scared of telling them how I spend hours crying because I feel so alone,
how I feel so lost and empty on the inside, how I no longer have any
aspirations or see a future for myself, how their hurtful words eat me up
inside, how I hate myself for not having the courage to stand up for myself. I feel dead, I feel numb and bitter and dark on the inside. I don't want your sympathy, I want your help. I'm scared you will judge me and ignore me and think I'm mad and you'll leave
me too. I'm afraid to tell you because it's engulfed me so much. I'm in this
whirlpool of self-hate and depression which has sucked me in and prevents me
from reaching out. It’s stopping me from opening my mouth and telling anyone.
So, please, help me because I don't want to carry on like this anymore.
